Another new POST - WoW!

Yup I thought why not since I'm currently sitting here watching the video monitor hoping Caden will fall asleep. He has such short naps as is and not very many that I have to try as much as I can to get him to sleep.

Let's see. Last night with Caden was ok. He woke up at 2:30 which means I couldn't go back to sleep till 4 and then my husband had to get up early for work at 5 am, which kinda sucked because Caden wakes up when he hears some one in the bathroom. He sleeps on the same wall as the toilet in sink. So up again and couldn't go back to sleep till 6:30 at which time Nathan's Fiance started her shower...So needless to say I'm kinda tired and I think Caden is too because this morning he has been into everything and trying to push the limit. He is a great baby he does no right from wrong and he doesn't give me a look and says I'm going to do it anyway...it's more of a hmmm, what's this do, can I touch it here, well you said no 5 minutes ago so maybe its ok this time.

He is so amazingly smart. He can pretty much figure out how to move thigns within seconds of touching it. He is pretty awesome, if I do say so myself.

He has learned that the cord above his bed is the video camera cord and he can now just reach it and he was playing with it, so I had to run in there and stop him before he rips it off the hook and on to his little head. That would put a dent in it.

I had a great job interview yesterday. Unfortunately I really can't take the job, its starts now and ends June 30. Which is pretty much only when I want to go back to work. Oh well, I'll just keep applying for a job.

I'm not sure if I've said this (probably not). We're currently living with my parents while our house is being built. We ended up selling our house really early and had to move in really early with my parents. It's really put a strain on my husband and I. We know its for the best and thats why we've stuck it out. We even got to go on a vacation which was wonderful. But I've spent 8 months of my 10 month maternity leave with them. It's been hard but in 26 days we will get our new home and we will be better for this.

Caden's never really known anything other then this home. He currently shares his room with my Mom's office so its a half and half room. We all started out in the same room but it never worked well and he was moved within a few weeks. I get really frustrated every few days with living in my old bedroom, its really hard but we're making due and the light is coming at the end of the tunnel.

Lately I've been reading to help pass the time. I've been going to the library and taking out books and reading through out the day and night to help me pass more time. It always helps when your able to take your mind to another place. I loved reading so much before Caden got here and haven't done too much since he arrived other then New Mom Help Books.

I'm hoping to get away in 2 weeks for a few days in Toronto to see my cousin. Mom will come too which I think will be nice for her to get away. My Mom and Dad are really getting on each others nerves since my Dad hasn't worked in some time. He has finally gotten a course booked for 2 full weeks while will be wonderful for both of them.

I'm hoping to get out and enjoy some of the beautiful sun today. I love when you can see the Spring arriving, its so uplifting to the spirit.

OK well I guess I'm off to shower in the 5 minutes I have left before Caden wakes up :) thank goodness for 20 minute naps :)

Job Hunting

Ok I'm attempting to blog again... It never lasts long but I really thought this time (like I do everytime) it would be different.

My thing is... I need a job. Not just any job. I want the perfect job. One that would work with me and Caden and not the other way around. I mean I'm not looking for the holy grail of all jobs. I would like one that is 8 hours, flexible in that if Caden's sick I can either work from home or actually take the time off with out feeling guilty. I want to make sure I can get some vacation time so we can spend family time together too. I know the best place to find a job would be with the government. But after years of trying I have yet to get a job.

I'm worried about the whole job hunt. What if no one whats me? What if I can't find a job? What if I don't get the right pay rate? All these things weigh on me. I don't have to have a job until June 30. Which is great but I also can't apply for a lot of things because they are looking for some one now and not in a few months from now.

Caden still needs to spend sometime with his babysitter and get used to the idea of me not being there which breaks my heart. This is going to be hard enough. It's true I have already found a sitter. Some one I've known for a long time and that I trust and has kids and is really fun. But still I'm not with him.

Sigh... job hunting...

3 months 2 weeks old

I can't believe thats its been 3 months since he was born. I can't believe what a wonderful boy I have. He is very sweet and never sleeps. I wish he would but I've been ok so far with the sleep.

We sold our house in 4 days and moved out 3 weeks later into my parents house. It's ok but its hard living in the same room I grew up in with my husband and my baby.

It's nice though having my parents around for help and support. Although my Mom is away in Calgary right now and my Dad in Montreal. Nathan is hardly ever here. So its been ok.

Lets see Caden is a healthy baby. He seems very happy except if I have cheese or something like that. He has yet to laugh so I'm assuming we're just not funny enough. He started on cereal this week though I'm sure not much has gotten down the hatch. I usually dribbles out.

He has a pretty good routine asleep sometime around 9 or before. He has a bath before that and he usually loves his bath so much.

He is starting to sit up which is great and bad all at the same time. In the bath it sucks and on the couch not so good. But he is developin so fast.

He talks non stop. He talks all the time its great and its usually hilarious but sometimes its like please stop but I couldn't do that to my little boy.

He has really started to develop a personality and he loves to talk and be out in the world. He loves to go out and look at everything people, bright colours, trees. I read books to him and he likes to look at the pictures.

He doesn't sleep much like I said. He usually just sleeps in my arms or at least I have to be int he same room with him. He has only slept in his crib a few times in the past few days. One night the entire night and then last night was awful for him. His nose was stuffed and he didn't know how to deal with it. So at 3 am I tried to unplug his little nose which did work for a while.

I took photos of him today and realized just how much these little miracles change before your eyes over night. He is so adorable and happy I couldn't have asked for anything more perfect. He is everything I thought my baby would be.

Caden Quinn is amazing!

I can't believe where the time has gone. Just 2 weeks ago I wrote my last post that was the day I went into labour after a visit to the doctors office. Since then little Caden Quinn was born into the world on May 21 at 3:40 am. Weighing in at 9 pounds and almost 22 inches long. He was adorable from the moment he was born. The 2 days in the hospital following the birth was a mixture of sleep deprivation and amazement. Today 11 days later I can't believe how lucky I am to have such a wonderful little boy. I have been busy staring at him for hours on end. He is so sweet and cuter then I could have ever dreamed. I can't believe he is all mine.

I have had a harder time getting over the pregnancy then I had orginally thought. I am emotional and have too much going through my head most of the time. If I dwell on something too long it bothers me. Like today, I can't believe my little baby is 11 days old and soon to be 14 days old and then a month. It's driving me nuts how fast the time flys. I can't believe how inadequit I feel to have brought this little precious life into this world. It's more mind boggling to me. But I guess that is part of the whole being a Mommy thing.

Caden has been a wonderful baby since "getting out". I don't want him to change or grow up and I dread thinking past the week. I was very hard this week with Aaron returing to work. It sucks. It means the "babymoon" is over and I hate thinking about that. He changes every day and I don't want to miss a thing. It's true you just don't know until you have a baby about so many things like time, sleep, and love. But I do look forward to learning all about him and teach him things. I can wait though.

Is he coming today?

Well I'm going to the doctor's in a few hours. I'm hoping that this will be the end and she will induce me. This little one either is having issues coming out or there is something else wrong because nothing, and I mean nothing has worked at inducing him. Aaron said I'm more like the mythbusting pregnancy inducing person. I've tried everything and nothing worked. So here I am 3 days passed my due date and contractions all the time but nothing consistant and nothing painful enough to get this labour started.

Monday night has been the worst night thus far. With contractions every 20 minutes and every time I fell asleep I would have a contraction with in 20 minutes. Poor Aaron didn't sleep a wink and I was exhausted as well. Only I didn't have to work. Last night we split up after laying in bed for 10 minutes and I got my first contraction. I was like thats it up stairs I go and propped myself up on the pillows and was actually able to sleep in some good long periods.

So at this point I'm just counting down the minutes until my doctor's appointment at which time I will beg her to take this baby out.

I have to say though I have been so nervous for the baby. The best investment we made for the baby this far has been the fetal heart monitor ($30) at Babies R Us. Because any time I get worried because he hasn't moved or I'm just paranoid I can listen to make sure his heart rate is still good. It's definately kept my sane this entire time. Especially when your constantly thinking the worst.

Anyways hopefully today is the day and we'll have news of Caden's aarive shortly! Woo HOO!!

Still waiting

I didn't realize that there is nothing you can do to get a baby out. We've tried everything and I've even walked for 2 days and nothing so far. I can't wait to meet him and I don't even want to think about me going late. Today after walking so much I'm resting. I can't imagine lasting very much longer. I feel huge, can't sleep and am in pain most of the time. I know its complaining and I normally am not like that but I can't stand the pain any more.

I don't have anything planned for today except maybe starting his scrapbook. Although I really don't have the pictures to do anything with. I have made lists of all the pictures we need to get in the first few days. I want so many I'm sure its crazy but they are only that small for a short period of time.

Aaron is working and keeps wanting me to update him but its sad when you have nothing to text about.

I never thought I would make it this far so its frustrating to me to be in this place. It's the 13th and there is really no end in sight. At this point I'm just really hoping I don't go over due. Please no!!!

Baby on the way

I wanted to make a blog so that all of our family and friends will be able to see pictures of our little boy growing up and it's easier then sending out mass emails.

I'm technically due on May 17th only 6 days to go technically. I've been having contractions since Thursday and everyday I think I'm in labour because they get worse and they get closer together and then they stop. It's driving me nuts right now. Yesterday I was in lots of pain all day but nothing. I'm going to the doctor's today at 10 am. Hopefully she will tell me some good news.

This little one is trying to spite us all by coming on his own sweet time. I was hoping for May 1 or 2 and then I said the latest the 7th. My Mom and Dad said with the full moon on Saturday and my brother wanted either Friday or Monday to make it a long weekend. But nothing so far. I really wanted to be a mother for Mothers Day. I though how nice would that be. But nope. Not happening. Although, my little one did get a message through to Aaron to give to me and some beautiful flowers. It's amazing how young they learn to text... Kidding.

I think we've tried everything now to get him out and nothing is working. I know it just means he will come on his own sweet time. But I'm impatient, as anyone will tell you. This will be my third week off of work. We can't afford not to ave the baby soon. Maternity leave only kicks in once he is born. So far since I've been off I've gotten lots done. Baking, cleaning, thank you cards, the baby's room is all complete. I did sit on the couch for 1 day and did nothing. I almost watched an entire season of the Office, played Rock Band. All the things that once he gets here I will be like "What did we do before baby?!" It's true through. Everyone says it and once he is here I will yearn for that down time. But I can't wait for him to get here to enjoy him and to take care of him. There will be no time in the beginning I know but slowly I will gain the knowledge of multitasking in the home. I've already got that mastered with work.

Anyways, the plan today is to hurry up and wait for this little one to come :)