Job Hunting

Ok I'm attempting to blog again... It never lasts long but I really thought this time (like I do everytime) it would be different.

My thing is... I need a job. Not just any job. I want the perfect job. One that would work with me and Caden and not the other way around. I mean I'm not looking for the holy grail of all jobs. I would like one that is 8 hours, flexible in that if Caden's sick I can either work from home or actually take the time off with out feeling guilty. I want to make sure I can get some vacation time so we can spend family time together too. I know the best place to find a job would be with the government. But after years of trying I have yet to get a job.

I'm worried about the whole job hunt. What if no one whats me? What if I can't find a job? What if I don't get the right pay rate? All these things weigh on me. I don't have to have a job until June 30. Which is great but I also can't apply for a lot of things because they are looking for some one now and not in a few months from now.

Caden still needs to spend sometime with his babysitter and get used to the idea of me not being there which breaks my heart. This is going to be hard enough. It's true I have already found a sitter. Some one I've known for a long time and that I trust and has kids and is really fun. But still I'm not with him.

Sigh... job hunting...